There are times when I find myself wondering in the desert of my own emotional upheaval...those times when I've lost track of me and instead have become consumed by the fog of nothingness. It's easy to slide down the hill into the mire when you don't keep your lamp lit. That's where I am. This is really nothing new to me. I give so much of my oil away without replenishing it, that before I know it, I'm dry. Unfortunately, this always seems to happen before the semester has come to a close and nothing drains me quite as much as teaching. I love what I do, but there are days (and sometimes weeks) where I feel weak and tired and irritable. I just need a break, a chance to refill the lamp and refocus on my goals and my life. To maybe try something new or develop different opportunities and friendships.
It's these times that I really need to keep my eyes focused squarely on the cross because if I don't, then this time is far more painful. There's nothing like the poor decisions that come from building a wall between me and God.
So, here's to keeping my focus and making it through until a respite is offered.
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